{Late Post - I was hospitaled last week - but the post took longer to appear}
I must admit this year my visits to the blog have significantly increased perhaps due to the abundantly overflowing writing juices and also me finding the time on multiple occasions.
So as I lay in my hospital bed in a surprisingly comfortable hospital room, I thank my surgeon and her team for being the miracle workers they are and for allowing me (by the virtue of sanity post-operation despite the gruesome pain) to imprint some of my thoughts into this blog.
Surgeries can be painful and the recovery to health even more, but when someone is blessed by awesome family and a precious bunch of friends, the pain seemingly impacts less. It almost creates occassions and experiences that introduces a filter between the fair-weather friends and the real ones. The ones that care and the ones that seemingly appear to care. Whilst this concept of telling the worldly wise people from the the ethereally beautiful may be evident to most as part of their people interaction 101, to me this was quite a bit of an education.
On a different note, while the medical chaos and the surgical conundrums were coming to an end - I experienced an event that confirmed that bygones are bygones and need to be left there. I also experienced that "Life has a plan" whether we like it or otherwise.... "LIFE ALWAYS HAS A PLAN!!" To quote Soren Kierkegaard - “Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.” So simple and true.
Without needing to delve into the nitty gritty of the situation - the juxtaposition between my expactation and reality was rather sharp. What baffles me as humans is the need to perceive things as convenient when we need it and then change the rule and be "all grown up" when it comes to someone other then themselves. Myself included I suppose we all meddle the rules as they befit us.
So, why is it so difficult when we experience that kind of behavior from ones we most love and why can't loving just be uni-directional? In fact, if love expects a two way (emotional, physical and spiritual) street, is it even love ? Or perhaps a barter of sorts?
There are few episodes in life that are best peeled in sections and spoken about at length. And then there are others that just need to be quickly summarized in a few words and left for them to be understood in one's own perspective. My blog takes the latter vein.... so only so much to indite. This may leave a sour after taste... or perhaps an incomplete chain of thoughts... either way ... we say it all when we say nothing at all or in this case... something at least!
Ciao!
