Soul searching

Here I am

Soul searching again

With droplets of rain

And early morning dew

Only one missing is you 

You touched my soul 

My tears,my whole

Then we stayed in our being 

And here I am recounting that feeling 

But woes of gloom surround me 

The droplets of rain pour the pain 

It hurts to know that I'll never see you again

It hurts even more that I'll never rest my head on your shoulder and share my pain

The streets I walk will be alone forever

With no stars seen together not now, not ever

The thought of death on my own grapples me with fear and you nowhere in sight
Death was to do us part and now it's just us living our parts

No twinkle in my eyes, no soft smile across my face

It hurts to accept that life will be this

It pains even more that there is no tomorrow

While we had our chance we missed the choice and
 life now has other choices.

This I never imagined, to be shunned

be stilled and be muted in feelinggs not once but twice

It perhaps is bygone and pointless reeling and mourning
The price I paid I suppose, in being nice

Time shall heal and so shall I wait

With all the love and not any hate!

Here I am soul searching again

With joys and sorrows all but in vain!